75 and sunny today, of course we spent it at the park and with ice cream.
Too bad daddy’s been working, we’re used to no daddy during the week, but it sucks when he works weekends, especially since he’s doing 2 at least and that means 3 weeks without seeing him. We’ll all survive though…
We had a fun girls weekend! I hope spring is really coming…
Mike is working the next 2 weekends at a minimum. That means at least 3 weeks of not seeing him…. That sucks!
Oh well, Such is life in the business that we’re in. I am going to pick Katlyn up tonight to spend the weekend with Chloe and I, she’ll be sad Daddy isn’t there and then excited its a “girls weekend”! The simply joys for 7 year olds!
Anyways, here’s hoping the both act right and don’t drive me mad since I have noone to pass them off to when I hit my limit. I’m not so worried about Katlyn, but Chloe sure has been in her terrible twos this week!
Just did the hardest thing I’ve ever done… Watch my daughter cry for me on FaceTime and convince her to lay down and hold me with her. She fell asleep rather quickly after checking to make sure I was still there but wouldn’t let go of the phone even when she was asleep.
Mike tells me to quit beating myself up, that she’s being taken care of and she’ll be good once I get back. But that sure doesn’t make these couple of days any easier. Just seems to be getting harder for her, like she thinks I’m not coming back.
I just wish I could hold her right now…feeling like a pretty crappy mom right about now. Hopefully tomorrow is better.
I am out of town this week…
Normally it’s ok, I can use the break and Chloe could care less. This time, it’s breaking my heart. My sweet girl is very clearly missing me and it breaks my heart. I miss her too and am ready to be home already!
Here is to 3 more days out here… Wish me luck!
This trip to get her ears pierced sure did tear daddy up. He was all worried about choosing to cause her pain… But she proved ready when we were picking out her earrings and she kept on wanting them in. Then she did great when it was time, sat like a big girl, cried for a minute then stopped and wanted her sucker, stickers and to see them in her ears!! She’s such a big girl… I’m so ready to get home to her. She always loves me, pissed off and all, she reminds me it’ll be ok.
You know one of the worst things for me? Having my spouse pissed off at me over something dumb. It doesn’t happen often that we fight, and it wasn’t even a fight, it was him getting mad because I slept through about 20 phone calls from him last night. The problem is if there was a real problem I had my phone on vibrate and noone could get ahold of me. I understand that.
My problem is that I think he reads into it more and starts to question things that are not even a factor. I love my husband more than I can say. I knew immediately he was the one I would marry and that feeling has never changed. What’s funny is I was mad at him yesterday for not really calling me, then, when he finally decided to call, I was OUT cold. I truthfully don’t remember hearing it buzz even once, and the FaceTime call that came in on iPad scared the crap out of me!! I went to bed early and apparently for a good reason, I was super tired. I just wish he would quit being mad, it’s so frustrating, especially since he’s not home and so our phone calls just have such tension in them… I hate it. Last night and today have been pretty miserable for me.
And… End rant/pity party.
Today is a big day, Chloe turns 2!! She is my pride and joy and I am not sure I’m ok with it. It has really hit home, she’s moved up at school, she’s just getting too big too quickly!! I love you more than I can tell you… Happy birthday sweet girl!
Mike and I got to go on a long needed date! It was great, it was peaceful, it was nothing exciting, just us enjoying each others company with no kids bugging us for this or that or having to help feed them! It was even better considering when we left, she didnt cry or scream or freak out. She told me bye and I love you mama and then went to read a book with my cousin. Super thankful for my cousins coming over to watch her!! I hope everyone else out there gets a chance to do this everyonce in a while. We are probably in a different situation since mike is gone all week I feel even less connected to him but that also makes him feel like he should be with the girls every chance he gets on the weekend, which makes it really hard to break away… I’ll take the day I got and hope this can happen at least once a month!!!
She had a Great Christmas!! I know because she won’t quit playing with her toys, specifically her baby dolls. I’m not a girly girl and didn’t expect to be playing with dolls so much, but she’s happy so I’m good. We get to do it all again tonight for the big one who was with her mama for Christmas, we get her for the whole week though!! Plus, little one only opened half of her presents since she got so distracted And Katlyn wanted to open some with her too. So I’m excited for tonight!!!!
I don’t do a lot of sharing, but this email I received brought tears to my eyes. We don’t donate much, but we insist on donating periodically. The email was written so well and made me truly feel like our little donation made a difference. All I know is that I never want to get the news that one of our loved ones has to go through this, especially children. We have been lucky enough to have no connection to cancer but is just the one thing I can’t help but donate to!! I hope everyone has a great Christmas, and remembers the holiday spirit of giving. Again, it doesn’t need to be much, or to any particular cause. It can be money, gifts or just time. There are plenty of people out there that just need a little help, a little love, and a little support. Lets see what we can do to make a difference!!